31.1.07

Questions & doubts-January 4, 2007

In these passing days I wonder who I am and what I am trying to accomplish. I appear to be determined to upset my life. I have made so many mistakes and I seem talented about making many more. I am skilled at traveling the wrong direction. Rarely am I desperate enough to choose the correct coarse. I allow myself to be deceived to later pine over my poor decisions.

Is it possible I made the wrong choice? Was the other option what was intended for me? Or did I just choose the worst of two evils? I would like to think the later. I moved to hastily. Or actually, I was just curious then the next thing I know I have allowed snowballing to take place. It is out-of-control now.

The question that hangs now like a strangled elephant-do I have the courage to reverse or eradicate my downfall? Do I have the motivation and the morality to remain firm to what I believe? Will I remain patient to my direction for what God wants to do for me? Do I believe in truth? Do I believe in God's will and never ending love for me? I must or I have nothing to hope for.

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